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Hello fellow readers,
for the past few daes I am feeling quite a deranged feeling inside that softly whispered to my ear that there is one more in my heart that I’m leaving out from the reality… I had being smiling for sometimes but its merely just a fake reflection of an emotion called happiness that I rarely feel in this week… this week has all been in rage or an heavy sadness that comes to me frequently… I don’t know how to treat this pain but I only can say that I am trying my best to stay happy an nomether how hard it is I will try to make myself happy… thanks to the people who tried to make me slightly happy but it really never works… toby has been so close with me that he is actually one of my dear friends… Siu Ee tried to help me but its avail in no reply… hope to see my baby feeling better without me and lets see how I can do without her… I felt that I am losing her slowly, undecided that I will comfort myself even more with work but it seems that I could only think twice before acting out what I should do when I’m with her… I love her but she don’t know that she love me as much as I do… toying me like a puppet that I felt now but I am making this last as its her first time being close with any boys… I never felt that I should do anything but just to sit and wait… giving her and myself a week to disappear to a state of happiness for her and sober for me… im not so sure that I can live up for a week without any emotions to bring to school with… theres a lot of things happening that I really cant manage to control but love is one of them that I really cant do at all right now…. Fuck up feeling which I am in but hope my brother is safe… I shall not do anymore things which could affect my life anymore… so im going to be in a state of zombie so don’t approach me and ask why okay… that’s all that I can say…
ILOVEYOU SO MUCH! STAYING POSITIVE ALWAYS... DO TAGG ME ASS! :)

Labels: chewed up love